Dodging Cupid's Arrow

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day.

I refuse to have a "Valentine." There's just something so gay about the whole holiday.

Maybe it's because I've never really had a full on "Valentine" and therefore the holiday just seems so strange. I tend to freak out a bit when things get too mushy or lovey-dovey, and I have a feeling it is why I completely ended things with Alice yesterday. Remember her? Yeah, me too. That's why I decided to call things off.

I told Alice that we were leading two different lives. I said that we have two completely different circle of friends and that I honestly don't see it going anywhere. Lately, we haven't really been hanging out. Instead, it's been us "hanging out" for a couple of hours of the day just to say we hung out. Therefore, I didn't think she would find it so shocking I wanted to end things.

But she was. In fact, she cried. I never pictured Alice as the one to cry. She's so "badass" and never really shows her true feelings (typical Libra, I say). I don't really know how I feel about the whole situation now. In all honesty, we have been hanging out with each other since November. That's quite a long time for lesbians. That's an even longer time for me. But as my feelings for Lindsey continue to play themself out, I really needed to drop Alice. It's what's best.

So tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Whoop-ti-do.