Call it off.

There's a Tegan and Sara song called "Call it off." The lyrics go a little something like this:

I won't regret saying this
This thing that I'm saying
Is it better than keeping my mouth shut
That goes without saying
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case I go there
Everyday, to make myself feel bad
There's a chance that
I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to

The part that gets me is the "Maye I would have been something you'd be good at."

I've reached the stage where I think I just need to call things off with Jen. I look at my last post and it's ironic that it has come to this. But...I think it's time to go on.

For some reason, it feels ok.

And I'm fine with ok.